Again.

What if I was meant to be alone forever??!!

Yup. Again.

I'm worrying too much.

I know. 

Bye.

Hilang!

Tekanan perasaan sekarang ni.

MACAM MANA NUT KERETA TU BLH HILANG 2 BIJI??!!

anak setan mana la plak yang pegi curik.

tensen tol aku!

tak memasal aku kena kuar sampai 30 inggit nak beli yang baru ari ni.

Dah tu allignment kete tu pun!

apahal la time aku pakai la ko tetibe nak tunjuk prangai ni.

Boleh tak ko tunggu tuan ko balik dulu kalo ye pun.

Aku benci btol.

Kang aku la yang kena marah nanti ni.

Esok g keje nek basikal!

Full stop.

Nota Kaki.

I want a guy who wud luv me for who I am.

Tak amik kesah if aku kasar and kuat mencarut skali pun.

"ey setan, teman I lunch plz? I love you."

I just wanna be myself.
Not a fucking retard that lives just to please other retards.

Doing great!

I think too much.

but I just can't help it.

I think and think and think.

All the time.

and so I've finally decided.

I forgive you dear.

For whatever reason it is.

I forgive you.

well, it wasn't really all your fault actually. eheh.
so maybe I should say I forgive all your parts of being guilty?
haha.
but I do hope you would forgive mine too.

I feel great now.
I have no idea where did that come from.
but I like it.
wuhuuuuu^^

Tak payah bercinta!

Tak payah gatal nak bercinta kalau rasa tak mampu nak handle.

Kalo ko rasa bila ko bercinta, gado skit ko da tak boleh nak study.

Then, tak payah!

esok2 ko gagal, ko sebok nak salahkan orang pulak.

Kalo ko rasa bila ko bercinta, ko tak mampu nak luang masa untuk si dia.

Then, tak payah!

tu bukan bercinta pun, ko menyeksa jiwa dia ada ar.

Kalo ko rasa bila ko bercinta, ko tak mampu nak berkorban.

Then, tak payah!

balik2 dia jek kena korban untuk ko. ko g cari sugar mummy lagi bagus.

Kalo ko rasa bila ko bercinta, ahhh..banyak lagilah!

senang cakap, kalo rasa tak bersedia, tak payah!

ko menyusahkan idop orang lain jek nanti.

pastu kecoh macam ko la mangsa.
bullshit la!

sorry,
but I'm just tired of taking all the blames.
tepuk dada, tanyalah diri tu hakikat sebenarnya.

Bandaraya

Buat seketika, aku rindukan suasana itu. 

Hiruk pikuk bandaraya Kuala Lumpur.

Kelemasan di dalam kesesakan lalu lintas.
Kesibukan yang membuat aku leka dari masalah.

"The city that never sleeps."

Setidaknya aku tahu, aku bukan keseorangan.

Manusia tidak ada yang sempurna.
Tetapi aku masih mahu mengejar kesempurnaan itu.
Sehingga aku kehilangan harta² paling berharga dalam hidup aku.
Aku ditinggalkan terpinga-pinga.
Apa aku patut bersedih atau bersyukur.
Kerana akhirnya aku diberikan kesedaran.
Tetapi aku kehilangan orang yang aku sayang.
Aku rindukan segala²nya.
Kini aku cuma mahu bangkit sembuh.
Sembuh dari semua luka lama.

Di sini bukan tempat aku.
Keheningan malam di sini mengembalikan segalanya.
Kenangan lama itu datang menyerbu lagi.
Satu persatu ligat berputar di celah setiap ruang sempit mindaku.
Aku bencikan kesunyian ini.
Terlalu sunyi sehingga mindaku terlalu mudah didengari.
Fikiran kerap dihimpit emosi sehingga aku rimas.
 Setiap detik aku mengeluh.
Aku mahu lari jauh.
Jauh dari mindaku sendiri.
Bawalah aku ke tempat fikiranku menjadi kaku.

Bandar metropolitan itu.
Kebingitan yang tidak pernah berhenti.
Aku mahu pulang.
Ke suasana yang buatku tenggelam.
Jiwa kosong, menerawang.
Biar aku tidak lagi kenal siapa diri aku.
Semoga aku lekas sembuh.
Sembuh dari luka yang dalam itu.
Luka yang aku coret sendiri.

Diet fav menu..

had McD for lunch today.

yup. so called diet.

no wonder the scale remains still.

.......

.....I hate this feeling.

I've had enough

Seriously! Do u really av to b so rude??!!!

I'm not dat BIG pun ok!

plz la..jgn biadap sgt blh x?

aku x penah pun kutuk rupa paras/fizikal ko..

perlu ke tiap2 kali nk sembang,

ko mesti nk wat lawak poin pasal fizikal aku?

perlu ke nk bergurau hina fizikal aku? xde bnd laen da ke???!
at least yg less sensitive skit ke? come on la..

juz becoz I'm a bit fat than u, so aku lgsg xley nk join sembang. is it?

maybe dat joke was not that harsh to me before dis..

tp kalo balik2 nk point aku pasal fizikal aku..

asal membahan jek nk kutuk fizikal aku..

x kena2 ngan topik pun tetibe nk bukak poin fizikal aku..

what da heck la!!!!!

bkn aku tetibe nk jadi sensitip lebey..

tp agak2 ar weyhhh..aku bkn ati batu..

mulut jgn mcm haram sgt..melampau da ni..

BIADAP!!!

Stuck.

I juz don't get it.

I feel stupid now.

what am I doing??

plz E! u really need to stop looking for him!

shit! seriously!

stop making urself look like a FOOL.

I hate you gurl.

I HATE U!!

"Old habits die hard"

damn!

Why Not Me?

Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall
My mind is running wild tryin hard not to fall
You told me that you love me but say I’m just a friend

my heart is broken up into pieces

Cos i know i’ll never free my soul

it’s trapped in between true love and being alone

When my eyes are closed the greatest story told

I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

c/o
Why oh why tell me why not me
Why oh why we weren't meant to be

Baby i know i could be all you need

Why oh why oh why

I wanna love you

if you only knew how much i love you

So why not me

The day after tomorrow I’ll still be around

To catch you when you fall and ever let you down

you say that we’re forever our love will never end

I’ve tried to come up but it’s drowning me to know

you’ll never feel my soul

It’s trapped between true love and being alone

when my eyes are closed the greatest story told

I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

You won’t ever know

How far we can go

Best Regards,

Eip

With Luv,

I need a VACATION!!!!!!!!

Keluar Hitam

Td ofis BLACKOUT!!!

damnnnn~ berpeluh2 duk dlm ofis.

naseb baek lah da ok..sempat sejam gak aku duk dlm 'sauna'
lambat lagi 5 minit td, mmg aku da dlm kete otw blk umah. huh!

I miss my ex..

suddenly reminded of u..

how u used to bring me along hanging out with all ur boyfriends..

n admit to everyone that i'm ur special someone..

at that time, I was DAMN PROUD to be ur girlfriend..

and

how u used to tag along when I hang out with all my girlfriends..

n everyone admit it was fun to have u around..

at that time, I was DAMN PROUD to have u as my boyfriend..

now that everything has changed..

I MISS U..

Sugarbabes - About you now

It was so easy that night
Shoulda been strong, yeah I lied
Nobody gets me like you do

"Could I keep hold of you then
How could I know what you meant
It was not meant to compare to"

I know everything changes
All the cities and faces
But I know how I feel about you

"There's a mountain between us
But theres one thing I'm sure of
That I know how I feel about you"

Can we bring yesterday back around
'cause I know how I feel about you now
I was dumb I was wrong
I let you down
But I know how I feel about you now

All that it takes, one more chance
Don't let our last kiss be our last
Give me tonight, and I'll show you

I know everything changes,
I don't care where it takes us
'cause I know how I feel about you

Not a day passed me by, not a day passed me by
When I don't think about you
And there's no moving on, 'cause I know you're the one
And I can't be without you

But I know how I feel about you now
Yeah I know how I feel about you now

Best Regards,
Eip.Slengerz