Hape ke payah bebenor nak tido nih??

guwa sejak dua menjak nih,
memang payah sangat nak tido lena malam².
duk guling² kiri kanan atas katil sampai naek letih dah,
tapi nanti dekat nak cerah gak la baru mata guwa betol² nak lelap.
dah pastu kalau dah tido pun dekat² nak cerah nih,
mula la mimpi nak yang bukan² jek keje. merepek tak tentu hala.
subuh takyah cite ah. menangis bapak guwa kalau tau.
huh, syaiton tol.

Bury me alive

It's been a while.

waking up with a huge sigh becomes a habit.

something inside of me feels lost.

something inside of me had been missing.

how i actually lost it wasn't really the point.

since i've been living without it,

for quite some while already..

i woke up without knowing what to do.

i went out without knowing where to go.

i stayed still without knowing what i was waiting for.
i got tired of blaming myself,

for not knowing the reasons why i'm here, alive.
this is just ain't me.

living without clear needs and directions.

i've even stopped speaking 'human'ly ever since.

rambling has more become the language i chose to speak in.

i used to hate being in 'common'.
i used to swear at doing 'routines'.
i used to like it being 'different'.
but somehow now,
i just no longer care bout being just like the 'others'.
all i ever want now is to be 'normal'.
just like any other living human being.
spare me some of that fresh air guys. *breathing heavily*.

I need a new book to write on,

a new story to begin with,

and a new life to live in.

only if I could remember where did I last see it before it went missing.

"dear soul, please come home now. let's go more furious dis time. chicken."

OMG!! Aku da tua!

umur aku da masuk 24 tahun ni.

orang laen sume duk sebok nak kawen,

aku lak balak pun tadek. shettt!

orang laen sume duk sebok keje kumpul duit,

aku lak blajar pun tak abis lagi. demmm!!!

macam mana nih ye.

ey, cane ni?!! *tetibe gelabah gile babi*

p/s: capai biskut 2 bungkus pastu duk termenung.....hmm.........

Let's celebrate!!

I am currently addicted to browsing thru some beauty conscious vids, (haha) and I'm certainly NOT talking bout those 'so called advice' talk on using 'healthy' pills and vitamins killing me vids, NO! I'm actually talking bout those 'how to' tutorials kinda vids, alaa..like the "how to apply concealers the right way" sort of thing! the one that shows you how concealers can actually covers up your major dark eye circles, acne scars and all sort of things that weren't suppose to show on ur face, IF you use it the right way la of course. duhh~ 

Not that i have an important DATE to attend yaw! lol! 

It's just that new year is coming up and I wanted to have a fresh and new look for the whole new year season. New year, new look, new fun and excitement, motivation level rising up! haha. Okey, do stop with that now plz. 

Now that I'm right below the foot of a damn stupid beginner, I'm in need of some seriously VERY² simple guidelines to start with. Something that MUST be suitable to wear on a daily basis tho (kang ada plak yang datang berebut nak bergambar ngan aku sebab tertukar aku ngan Lady Gaga! haha). and most importantly, I'm gonna need it fast! since i'm certainly having a camwhoring session at the new year celebration tonite! haha.

shud REALLY stop with d 'never ending rambling' now coz it's gonna drive everyone into nuts. 

(nah baldi if tak tahan rasa nak muntah dengar aku merapu dan gelak ntah hape² dari tadi)

HOWEVER!!

I did found out an interesting vid that you might wanna try out TONITE!

and it's of course for GIRLS only. (half girl, half boy, err..ske ati ko lah!)

you boys might feel like trying it as well, but then please don't leave the house after doing so!

have fun getting ready for tonite's celebration babes!

Rumah oh rumah

rumah sewa baru da halfway siap cat.

bilik dayah da siap, (alhamdulillah setel)

bilik aku dapat siap 2 side jek dinding.

tak cukup rupanya cat 7liter tuh, hish.

takpe, esok malam kita kerjakan lagi.

tilam ngan cadar pun nak kena beli gak nih.

esok gak ah nak kena buat sume tuh.

sebab esok malam da nak tido umah sana,
lusa kan da nak pegi mendaftar,

jadi semuanya mesti setel esok.

barang² juga haruslah pindah esok.

nanti da setel la baru aku upload gambar ye.

skarang baru lebey kurang dalam 50% la siap.

nak upload pun takde semangat.

tambah lak ngan sakit belakang nih,

nyte!

Awal Pagi

Da tak reti nak bangun lewat.

bagus gak tu.

bukak pintu rezeki.

tapi masalahnya sekarang,

aku ni da la nak suh masa cepat berlalu.

dengan duk sorang² kat umah tade benda nk buat ni,

bangun awal² ni buat aku rasa masa jalan lagi lambat ada ar.

aku prefer tido.

bangun² da zuhur.

pastu rasa kejap jek da maghrib

wahahahaha.

kalo aku ada benda yang boley aku usahakan nak buat,

memang aku tak kesah nak bangun awal².

yang peliknya dulu aku tade pun masalah² tido ni.

bila² jek pun aku boley tido.
nak² pulak kalo aku tengah tensen ngan apa².
lagi la keje aku tu membuta jek.
reasonnya, nak avoid dari berfikir.
nanti aku gila, sape susah? aku la jugak!

so dulu,kalo aku terjaga awal pagi pastu rasa malas bangun lagi,

aku slamber badak jek tarik balik selimut pastu teros hanyut.

ini aku da guling² dekat 80 round pun mata duk keras lagi.

pastu mula la nak post status ngamuk² kat fb. haha.

bukan kata bangun pagi dengan ceria tak.trok!!

ye ar..pasni cuba ceria sikit..praktis senyum sorang².
nanti korang pun mesti sejukkk jek ati tengok aku kan?
wakakakak!!

with luv,

-E-

Cap limau

naseb bek hari ni aku tak lupa bawak stokin pegi ofis.

gle sejuk aircond.

akak ipar aku pesan kalo dtg 'mc' tak elok biar tapak kaki sejuk.

nanti bloody hell tak lancar, tu yang cramp2 tu.

da sapu2 minyak yuyi cap limau,

kat perot, betis, tapak kaki,

pastu pakai stokin.

haaaahhh..lega jek rasa.

*mula berjalan ke sofa dalam ofis dan baring*

selamat 'malam' sume orang.

tu jek aku nak cakap sebenarnya, haha.

Please kill me.

Bapak ah bosan camni.
adik aku da balik melaka.

malam ni kena tido sorang2.

nak sembang2 pun da tade orang.

nak jerit2 pun da tak ley.

nak turun bawah pun da tade orang nak teman.

Esok g keje sorang2.

makan sorang2.

duk terperuk kat ofis sorang2.

tade kawan.

balik umah tengok tv sorang2.

tade orang nak dikaco.

hari2 camni mmg boley mati aku.

sepanjang hari ni aku tak banyak cakap pun.
nanti korang jumpa aku sekali lagi.
aku da jadi pendiam.
hah, takyah nak buat2 terkejot!!
menyampah i tau! mencik!
huh.

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*lagu yg berjaya buat aku tersentuh hati hari ni.*

malam ini ku sendiri
tak ada yang menemani
seperti malam-malam
yang sudah-sudah

hati ini selalu sepi
tak ada yang menghiasi
seperti cinta ini
yang semakin pupus

tuhan kirimkanlah aku
kekasih yang baik hati
yang mencintai aku
apa adanya

mawar ini semakin layu
tak ada yang memiliki
seperti aku ini
semakin pupus

This is a Lie

you go ahead,

I'll catch up with you later.

Don't worry about me.

I'll be fine.

I'm used to being alone.

It's really nothing.

I'm okay.

Seriously.

nyahahahahhahaahahaha!!~
*nenonenoneno..bunyik ambulans mari*

With Luv,

I need a VACATION!!!!!!!!